En Gedi

We descended once again to the desert today near the Dead Sea to En Gedi. En Gedi is the place where David hid from Saul in the caves. It was beautiful actually seeing it. Our guide took us up the mountain and at the top was a natural spring... in the middle of the desert. It was a beautiful waterfall flowing down the mountain of rocks. There was greenery all around and life flourishing everywhere there. Our assignment was to meditate and write a Psalm.... It was quite the experience. Today has been a rough day for me. Not all day, but just this evening. It's hard when your heart burns with passion and your flesh remains the same. I'm frustrated and burdened all in the same emotion. I see the Orthodox Jewish men walking in front of me right now, knowing that they have no hope of Jesus Christ and I sit on my balcony filled with the hope and peace of what Jesus has brought and cannot "find the time" to be Jesus. They don't need to "hear" it here, they must see it. They must see hope, which is why God sent Jesus. Not that he would just be here, but people weren't getting it by hearing it, they needed to see hope in action. They needed Christ. I need Christ. I want to live in truth. Truth is more than just the absence of lies, but the very nature of who God is. If I say I am living in truth than I am living in God- am I? God help me to live in truth. Help me to breathe. I need to breathe. Love never fails, but I do so often. If strength comes from the Lord than why am I so weak? I need to breathe. Breathe love and strength. I cannot do this alone. My heart burns but my body stays the same.
Tomorrow is Bethlehem. I just found out today that Bethlehem is not part of the Israeli state, but actually part of Palestine. This happened within the past 3 years I think. Our tour guide and bus driver are not allowed to go with us because they are Jewish and Jews are not allowed to cross the Palestinian border.

Listen to Marc Broussard "My God"- its beautiful. Also "You Are For Me" by Kari Jobe.